Has it really been less than a week into the new year? It sure has been a long week. It has been a hard week. It has been a crazy week.
I did make a New Year's resolution this year. I do not usually do that, because honestly, who keeps them? Well, this year, I have made a resolution to preserve my mental health; to take care of me.
You see, I am a social worker. I come by it naturally. I have always been the one people come to when they have a problem. I am a good listener, and usually have something helpful to say. The problem with being me is that often other people's problems become my problems. I have a tendency to internalize other people's issues. Then they eat away at me. I lay away at night crying over something that I cannot fix. Things that I should be expected to be able to fix, or even listen to. So, this year, I resolve to draw lines. I resolve to tell people, "I'm not going to talk about that" or "listen to that." I expect that those who love me will respect this. I hope that they will understand. Because, they are killing me. I cannot keep being the family social worker.
I am going to take care of me for a change. I cannot be a good social worker if I don't. I love what I do and I want to give it my best. I owe my real clients the best social worker. I owe my family the best wife and mom. I owe myself my best me! So here's to the best me in 2010!